Amazing in the sense of the situation and what led up to it.
Crazy thing is that he's only a year and half older than me. It's young, I know, but I knew he had it figured out in terms of his love life. And if I were in his position, I would definitely not hesitate to commit in such a fashion.
Love is great and I'm extremely happy for him, especially since I myself have struggled to find someone for myself. And then I think, when is my time coming?? I realize that I'm losing time, not that I have minimal time left, but that the clock will always be ticking. There's no stopping it.
I've been told many times that I should be enjoying myself, that I'm too young to want to commit, but I'm not much a test driver. Not to say that I plan on committing myself entirely to the next opportunity, but it's more of a preference that I rather do such.
Luck hasn't been on my side at all, and I do get frustrated with this waiting game. And I know patience is key, but fuck, I've been patient for the past 3 years.
He's lucky, no doubt about it, whether it pans out the way they want it or not, which of course I want it all the work out to the fullest. So all I can do is be happy, because my happiness comes from those around me, as it should as to not carry a selfish heart.
My time will come. Everyone's will. It may not happen how you thought it would, but something great will eventually happen for all of us in different forms.
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