And this was just for..

The sole purpose of randomness..

Here come a barrage of random shit!...3....2....1..

M.I.A. is cool as hell..

Flux Pavillion is cool as hell..

This song is pretty fucking awesome :D

alright next..

Give me ONE good reason why I should not love this album?? One of my favorites of all time...one of those that you can go from Start - End, and replay again..without skipping.

Alright one more random thing..

It suits Rihanna most definitely..but I still fucking hate Umbrellas.

I feel so awkward holding one. I'm stubborn as hell when it comes to using one, where I won't use won't...ever! Only reason I might use it is if I'm sick or I need to protect something valuable (it was my laptop that needed the protection today)

But yea, I don't get along with Umbrellas. they have a grudge against me and don't like to cooperate much..

Then they like to pick fights with other umbrellas while I'm walking. Like WTF?? Do your job before I throw you in the trash! I mean..that's a bit harsh lol. I just don't like umbrellas, plain and simple. I'm more of the "It's just rain" kind of guy. Fuck umbrellas....fuck umbrellas. lmao.

Random shit of the day :)

And I don't think I should..

but then I do..

Everybody knows how shitty the world is. If not, go watch Season 15, Episode 7 of South Park..

Anyways..deaths, racism, anything negative out there...Are you seriously going to let the horrors of this world bring you down?? Am I going to let a racial slur affect my entire mood??..

To me, that's stupid as hell. And that's why I use a defense mechanism..

Comedy. I guess it's not a "valid" psychological defense mechanism, but even famous comedians consider this to be one of the reasons why they take part in slandering-type comedy. If you take everything the world dumps onto you so seriously, you're just going to eat yourself up alive from all the negativity.

Fuck it, I really don't care if anyone calls me a spic, an immigrant, a dirty wetback, etc. You can call me whatever the fuck you want, but am I going to pout about it??

Y'all can tease me, I don't give a shit..

I'll probably make a comeback that's 10x better than anything you can think of, but for comedic reasons..

If I say anything racist, obscene, or sexual, it's for fun and it's to take this shitty world and the shitty aspects of this world and turn them into some form of positive light.

For example: Michael Jackson died..ok, cry about it?? No. Michael Jackson is a flaming pedophile who wished upon a star so that Caylee Anthony can join him on his death "bed".

Do I care about either one of them?? Can't say that I specifically do, but it's never a good thing when someone dies. Is it wrong to joke about them?? Yes and No. This isn't simply about semantic meaning. My intentions aren't "fuck MJ and Caylee". My intentions aren't negative whatsoever.

Now, let's say a true White Supremacist made disrespectful references about black people (kind of drifted away from my first example lol). They base a large part of their lives following a certain belief about black people. Their intentions are completely different than mine or anyone who ridicules about this kind of shit in a non-harmful way..

I can easily say, I hate niggers, jews, and spics..Is this a heart felt feeling?? Fuck no. Dave Chappelle tapped into a lot of this shit when he did the Chappelle's Show. It's not uncommon to make fun of people, cultures, and lifestyles when your intentions are solely to create a positive light for negative aspects..

Being racist is fun, you niggas can't hang with me son, O-K-K-K, hate the game?? I'm making it fun..

You hear something you don't like, see something you don't like..what do you do?? Take defense (defense mechanism) by making light (or fun) of it..Pretty simple actually..I hope I'm understood.



I'll end this by saying, Fuck every single race, fuck Jesus, and fuck Chris Brown..

^__^

And it comes so..

Give it to you over again, over again, over again...over again..

What I do, how I act, how I speak, how I treat women, how I go about my day..anything else??..Well, all that comes naturally.

It's better to have "good" fall from your heart onto the world, rather than conjure up some good, and give it to the world..

Let it all fall into place..

..over again, over again, over again...over again..

And I treat them like this because..

*readies for an extremely long blog post*

This will be edited immensely since this is a HUGE part of my persona..

but let me start off with this..

and then this..

Why do I love women?? Why do I respect them??

It just happened really..through both these two great albums of course.

I really started having control of my mind around 2006. I'd like to consider my previous years to be "years of unconsciousness". Technically I was conscious and breathing, but outside influences were such a huge part in my thinking process that I didn't feel in control (why I conformed, wanted to be cool, etc.).

Point is, R&B is amazing. The right type that is. And I felt so influenced, not only by the words of each song, but the mood, the mindset, and the fantasy each elicited. (by fantasy I mean how I would want to see my world and what I consider to be perfect).

I was taught by two teachers, Joe and Ne-Yo. Sometimes they would bring in some surprise guests, but for the most part, they were my main instructors. Mind you, I was taking more than one class.

So for me, the mindset of the "perfect guy" is instilled in me. I can't do no harm to a woman, physically or verbally, I just can't. I think I'm mentally incapable of doing so..

Then, Ne-Yo came out with "The Year of the Gentleman". My favorite Ne-Yo album to date and one of my all time favorites..

Why not make being the "perfect gentleman" seem like the cool thing to do?? Sadly, this still hasn't caught on. One of the few things I would love to become a trend. I respect men who hold this type of mentality in their head, because for me, I would love for all women in the world to be treated like royalty. They are the direct representation of what life is.

Then there are the, let's say, "fake" gentleman. The sweet-talkers. Whatever you want to call them. How to distinguish them easily?? Well in my opinion..

Gentlemen respect all people. Men and women.
Why treat anybody like shit?? Because they did you some kind of harm??..Haven't you heard the saying "Treat others as you wish to be treated" or the simple notion of NOT stooping down to someone's level and hold your ground??..I'm done here..(I guess there are SOME exceptions. I mean there are, but their reasoning is hidden)

When one doesn't get their way, why insult them?? I've seen/heard so many cases where a proposed "gentleman" treats a woman correctly throughout their relationship, but the minute she breaks up with him, he starts insulting her, calling her a "bitch", "cunt", etc. And then the woman can utter the phrase "Now your true colors show..". For me, of course I get sad, and of course I get angry. But I never blame her. I blame myself. I guess this is a form of projection. Project my anger for the relationships collapse onto myself. But as I was saying, insulting in general is ridiculous.

The perfect song..

And then I just think...this is how I feel, I mean...is it??

I REALLY don't like to force myself to be a certain type of person (another difference between real gentlemen and "fake" ones). Again, it just happens..It's such a natural feeling to me..*plays Nature Feels by Frank Ocean*..ummmm..*thinks of another blog post*.

Anyways, for example, I don't speak properly just to seem presentable. It just happens really..
    So for me, I don't force my "beautiful"s, I don't force my compliments, and I don't force my good gestures. My mind just ended up adapting to this feeling, this mindset, or even strongly, this lifestyle. Yes, it truly is a lifestyle.

It's the Year of the Gentleman. Every year for the rest of my life. Every day of each of those years..

Beautiful women. Beautiful hearts. Beautiful feelings. Life, she's beautiful. Life = each woman involved in it..

(again, editing will happen on here from time to time)..

And I rather be..

But I ain't really that normal to begin with. With normal comes a form of boring, and I dismiss it..

Do I pride myself in being weird?? Do I stress the fact that I'm weird?? Do I try to be weird for the sake of being different??

No. But I do admire it. I'm not going to force myself to being considered "normal", or try to conform for that matter..

I love my weirdness. But then...people have the notion of the term "weird" being defined solely as "odd" or "bizarre". Words aren't as one-dimensional as one may think. Think of the ambiguity one creates when they call a girl "bad". "Bad" in itself carries a negative connotation, but when used in certain slang, it carries a positive connotation. Yeah, bad idea to use slang as an example lol. But semantic ambiguity is very common..

So....with all that being said, when I speak of being weird, I put a little more focus on the "different from standard or norm" definition. You know, where some antonyms would be as such: normal, regular, common.

To me, weird = interesting. And just like the quote I stated, being "normal" can be pretty boring. I know when I meet somebody new, I want to find certain traits or aspects of them that differs from the general population.

Weird people are cool, and I know a lot of them. Some don't like being characterized as weird, but fuck it, not everybody likes to grasp the notion of weird being a synonym of interesting.

Ummm..I may add more to this post, or make a new post related to this, who knows?? I'm weird :p..

And as I step away..

Lately, I took a large step outside of the type of music I listen to. Hip Hop still appeals to me, but I needed to find more artists that I could rely on. In that spectrum, I could only rely on a few artists for music I could consistently admire (as in, I enjoy all their songs, and not just an album/mixtape). Some of these include, in order: Charles Hamilton, Rihanna, Ne-Yo, and maybe Mickey Factz..(there's more, such as Joe, Big Sean, Kid Cudi, and maybe Fabolous, but those are the most notable ones for me)..

So I started listening to to different genres..moving from trip-hop, to electronic, and to Dubstep. Some rock and progressive house as well.

I must say, I enjoy ALL of these. And I feel less one-dimensional about what I listen to.

Adding on to my favorite artists: Skrillex and deadmau5

I could name about 10-15 artists whose music I like as well in these genres, such as Flux Pavillion, but when I stand by an artist, I need to have listened to about 90% of their material, and have enjoyed about 70-80% of it. Flux might be added soon tho..

Going back to that first category of music I mentioned, for example, I DO like most of Kanye West's, Eminem's, and even Drake's material..but..

There's a difference between liking their music and HAVING to put their music into your mp3 player..It's a necessity that you have their music playing in your ears on a daily basis.

I can live my life without Kanye, Eminem, or Drake..I feel the need to have Charles Hamilton, Rihanna, Skrillex, etc..on my Music library..

Anyways, Music is fucking awesome. In every shape and form. It's an art (yes, just used a cliche)..

We should be able to spread our horizons and learn more about the types of music out there. I've always been tolerable to all types of music, but now I can say I'm a fan of different genres.

I am, and probably will forever be, considered a Hip Hop Head...you know, the "true" hip hop fan who knows the difference between a Nas and a Lil Wayne or Waka Flocka..

I hate being categorized..oh wow, just writing that made me think of this song..(and I'll just end this post on that note...with that sample)..

Project The Project..

This MIGHT be my Mixtape cover..Thoughts??..

Anyways, Project the Project..hmmmm..This is a mixtape I decided to work on at a time I started listening to a lot of deadmau5. I LOVE his music.

So, the story is, I found a FREE project that he put out, which I'm pretty sure was his first, called Project 56.
It's not much to listen to, not to say it's not good, but what I got from it was that it was meant for him to give some sort of a preview of his work so that his fanbase wasn't held up. When I first heard it, I found so many incredible sounds. And they fit perfectly with the type of music I wanted to delve into.

I can loop up tracks pretty easily (not really an art/craft), but the point is, this Project had a lot of Hip-Hop feel beats, which of course was of the Electronic genre as well. So my idea was to loop up some of the sounds I enjoyed the most off the project, and make songs out of them.

I'm pretty much rapping, adding words, PROJECTING, my voice onto these loops...therefore, I arrived at Project (my voice, my lyrics, my thoughts) the Project (Project 56)...Project The Project.

That wasn't too hard lol..

Free Mixtape of course, no profits, no marketing, none of that. This is solely being made as an appreciation of  deadmau5 and his sounds, and to release another Darc G (that's me, of course) project. I love my words, I love what I'm capable of doing with them. I hope when I'm finally able to release this, that I get positive feedback and that it's understood. (Even though I said I couldn't be fully understood, portions of me, being this project, can be)..

Cool, glad I got that out ^__^..

PTP..

Is this instance, I should rid of my existence and print this anonymous note that a common kid, stating I can't reside in this territory that defines me as a blind being..
..
Well get up! Crumble up the letter now..

Really listen to this song, I mean REALLY..

I don't throw lyrics together and just record..If you did listen, or just read that quotes up there ^, yes, this song is about a Suicide note. (not for me, not that I felt this, you know, before anyone gets ahead of themselves lol)

I just felt as though I wanted to bring this concept in. Basically, this song takes you from the feeling of wanting to commit suicide, to hearing inner thoughts tell you that life isn't fair, but you're given a fair chance to live.

Go ahead and quote me on that line up there ^. But to reiterate more, the song is about not letting Life down (I capitalized "Life" because I personified it), and to move forward, show Life that you deserved this opportunity. "Life" is a beautiful woman that you want to impress.

Fuck it. She can be rude about the ways she goes about running our world, but if Life kissed our ass our whole lives, we wouldn't learn to appreciate shit or learn to become independent. (compare it to parents spoiling their children).

But what do we live for?? We receive less even when we give more..

And with that, we should..
just keep going, keep going..

This is NOT..

A blog about Basketball..
         Although I will talk about the NBA from time to time..
A blog about my Music..
         Although I will explain/connect my music with my words..
A blog about advice..
         Although I will offer some thoughts about certain concepts I find interesting..

Just to make things clear..

This is just me. I may get personal. I may get critical. I may get ahead of my self with my music in promoting it. I really don't know, I'm just going to let this blog happen..

Simple enough, right?? Just the way I like it (=D)..

And I feel like..

..Promises, and they still feel all so wasted on myself..

Amazing song/remix.

My thoughts on "Promises" (not the song), are that they're a way of gaining trust. Promises are being broken everyday now, where the phrase "I promise" means shit to me now because of how much I've seen people use this so loosely. I want to go back to a time where we kept our word, where defiance wasn't so expected, and that we took promises more seriously.

I respect those who are able to keep up with their promises, and those that even though they can't come through with their promises, that they acknowledge that and don't promise anything in the first place.

You got me so wild, how could I ever deny. I feel good in my situation (something I won't and is hard to explicitly state), and I love it when I can trust people to fully deliver on their promises.

And you keep telling me, telling me that you'll be sweet. And you never want to leave my side.. - I can proudly deliver on this, any takers?? lol. But really though..feeling good is important. thinking positively is important. And projecting this positivity is important as well (this can be done through promises, not breaking them, being by their side, etc...get it now??)..

Beautiful music. beautiful minds. beautiful hearts..

Blogger vs Tumblr..

I thought about resurrecting my Tumblr, but then I stopped..(yes, I have a tumblr)

I don't like it. I see why people do though. To me, it's mostly reblogging funny shit, pictures of interest, quotes, gifs, etc. And there are a lot of numbers involved...I hate numbers.

Numbers hurt. If you think about it, a lot of what Social networking does is expose your numbers and your statistics. (eg. number of likes or friends on Facebook, number of reblogs a post on Tumblr received, followers on Twitter, etc.). Numbers, in this case, are judgmental cues. They open a window in front of you for people to judge you, whether it's directly or in their own mind.

Not that any of that shit matters to me, I just rather not have to associate with that kind of environment, even though I do keep my Facebook, Twitter, and YouTube. Contradicting I guess, but it's all about whether you allow certain information to enter your thought process or not.

But in the end, Blogger seems more based on creating your own words, making up your own mind, and saying what came directly from ideas shaped inside of your head. Tumblr to me feels like you're just copying shit, relating to others' interests, and creating a collage rather than a representation of yourself.

It's cool though, I enjoyed it for some time. It's not for everybody, same way Blogger isn't.

New Experience..

I guess since this is my first post, I should attempt to introduce myself. Well, I'm not going to...or maybe I will?? Well for the most part, those who see this first will already have an idea of who I am, but with what I want to introduce about my self will be scattered within each post I do create..

No. You don't understand me, and that's not the point of my existence. I don't try to have people understand me, but it is a motive for getting to know me and for being associated with what I do (who doesn't want to achieve the impossible?? lol). But it's more so about being able to respect and trust that I have good intentions and I plan on bettering myself, those I love, and those around me.

But if you do read, this is not therapy nor is it a coping technique. This is just a way to get myself out there for those who want to know more of what the fuck is in my head, to express some random thoughts, and possibly to clear some air.


I think I should add a smiley face at the end, just so this shit doesn't sound/feel depressing.. (=vD)--|--<