All I ever talk about is..

MY FRESH #SWAY

#SWAY #SWAY #SWAYALLDAY, #SWAYSWAYSWAYSWAYSWAY #ALLFUCKINGDAY

Sunshine is a Friend of mine..

Maya takes the time to try and understand me..

Am I Allowed??

To go from this..

To this..

Then from this..

To this..

I mean....should I just stick a certain trend so you can easily identify me?? I should..but I rather not, so I'm fine..

So I need ideas?? (Third Appeal)..

If I HAD to somehow categorize these, which I hate..but for the purposes of making life a bit easier to the listener, these would be categorized as followed:

(Non) Fictional Love Story = R&B

Project The Project = Hip-Hop/Trip-Hop/Electronic

inJUSTICE = Electronic

Fluxtuation = dubstep

The Application: Front and Back = ??


Note: I didn't mention "The Consideration: Mind Meets Heart" because that was put out some time ago, so it's not as relevant to what I'm trying to get at here..

and The Application is unknown because I have little to no idea what I'm actually putting in there and the release for that is not even on my mind lol.

BUT the point here is...I need a 3rd appeal!

All the upcoming things I'm releasing are a bit different than the usual and I know a portion of it may appeal to some, and a portion of it may appeal to others, but I need a 3rd appeal to appeal to those in the middle, those who rather listen to strictly Hip Hop/Rap...

So to anyone, I need suggestions on what I should release in between those, or if you like what's actually coming from me. I've done many remixes, have a mixtape out, which is both online(not youtube) and YouTube...so if there's a particular song that you like, and would like to hear more of that type, then please let me know :D..

Vicki Leekx..

This MAY be my all time favorite mixtape EVER! :O

But it's hard to say since I can't really compare it to a Hip Hop mixtape since M.I.A. is...well, M.I.A.

Either way, it's an incredibly amazing mixtape! I've listened to it start to end at least 50 times...but that's just me lol. Even burned it onto a CD for my multiple purposes I guess..

But these are the youtube links if anyone would care to join me in swagging out to this mixtape for its entire 36+ minutes

or in M.I.A.'s case...sway sway, sway sway sway sway sway..

/\/\ /\ Y /\..

For some reason, buying this made me SO FUCKING HAPPY!

M.I.A. - /\/\ /\ Y /\

I really don't understand how people/critics thought about this album negatively, but fuck it, I LOVE this album, and I LOVE M.I.A...It's not like I blindly just bought this though. I've been listening to it, but when I stand by an artist, I will stand by them and purchase their material, whether it can be downloaded for free (illegally) or not. I download albums all the time, but it's the rarest possible thing for me to actually buy an album, so this is serious lol. I'm going to buy Kala and Arular also, so yeah.. :)

Anyways, even though I came to admire M.I.A. pretty late I guess, it's really never too late honestly. Just because an album came out in, let's say, 2005, doesn't mean that if you didn't like it or notice it in 2005, you should ignore it. Fuck that, music is timeless and endless.

This song...wow...actually this album..

I can pretend that I'm not lonely

But I'll be constantly fooling myself

I can pretend that it don't matter

But I'll be sitting here lying to myself

Some say love ain't worth the buck

But I'll give every dime I have left

To have what I've only been dreaming about

We all want someone there to hold

We just want somebody

We all wanna be somebody's one and only

We all wanna be warm when it's cold

We all want love..

This song makes me feel incredible. I love it. I love her. Fuck it, I'm a Rihanna fan, a strong one. Should I not be?? I don't give a shit really. That's one of the faults of categorizing. I'm "suppose" to like a certain type of music, but I constantly defy those rules :)


Talk That Talk..11/21/11..only album I'm buying this year.

(Non)Fictional Love Story.. Download Link..

http://hulkshare.com/j8hxu5056tzt
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Enjoy, I know she did at one point..

Shout out to Guillermo! The only mention (other than her) I made lol..

(Non)Fictional Love Story.. The Intro..

Today (11/8/11) was the day I said, "Fuck it, I'm uploading this mixtape that was never intended to be a mixtape"..

I NEVER intended this to be 10 tracks long..

I NEVER intended the title to be a "choice": You can either refer to this as "Fictional Love Story.." or "NonFictional Love Story.."...you know why?? Well, I'm not going to spill my guts, but some people know the back story to it..

Each of these songs were written for "her"...My EX...one of the strangest and complicated loves I've had..

When I say these tracks are personal...I mean, these tracks are PERSONAL!

The only thing I'll explain/say about the title is that everything I put into these songs is real...but some of the facts became fiction..and at this point, what is deemed "true" about that relationship..that situation..is completely out of my hands..

I was at lost, but now I'm not...So this isn't a "come back to me please!" kind of thing...She's seen and heard every one of these songs, so I'm releasing this as "I poured my heart out track by track, I created music out of these strong, yet strange feelings, and this is what I have to show for those times we shared"..

I'm not going to rant and be pissed at what happened in my situation, fuck complaining. I'm way past that point. I'm cool, I'm keeping myself busy, and I'm seemingly unaffected.

So when I do post this, enjoy! (my gentleman persona SHINES in these songs lol)

Oh and quick note: There is a reason why the woman in the Mixtape cover is barely visible..that is all lol.

And they wonder what goes on in my head..

A unique perspective is one of the few things one has..

Ever since I learned about the word "verstehen", which is the German word for "understand" but also defined in sociology as the ability to put oneself in another's shoes, I felt I had the power to take on one's perspective..

It's possible, and I feel like I can do this pretty accurately, however there's just these minor details that cannot be understood or even explained.

Verstehen is much much more complex than simply empathizing, because anyone can "empathize", you can act empathetic, and you don't require much knowledge. But as I was saying, the point is that yes, I might be able to perform this pretty well and so can others (I'm not special whatsover lol), but one's perspective isn't as simple as that person may think. It's hard to really say that you have a true understanding of what your own perspective is because there are so many unconscious sides to it.

Why am I saying all this?? I really don't know honestly, my perspective on this subject can't be explained in one blog post, or even thousands of blog post..there will always be something left out...I feel like watching Vantage Point now, lol. Such an awesome movie, really.

But I guess if I had a purpose for reflecting on this is that as much as I want to feel alone in this world, I'm really not. The fact that I could never be understood is not unique to me. Everybody in this whole world cannot be understood fully, but this is not a bad thing.

We can then hold our perspectives tightly and realize that when there's nothing left around us, we own more than we think.

This is just one of my ways of saying: appreciate what you have (mentally), know what you're capable of doing so that you don't let yourself get overtaken, and trust in yourself more.

Everyone's unique, everyone's beautiful in their own way, we just have to realize it..

I hate feeling like I'm preaching, but shit, random thoughts just hit me out of nowhere and fall right onto this blog..

But then I have to do this just in case..

I gotta get with the rhythm so I could feel better..

How can you be comfortable, when life's so unpredictable..

I WISH I could simply do what I love, put myself in a position I prefer, and feel how I want to feel...but I can't.

I have to make sure I do what is necessary to live comfortably, put myself in a position that will secure my well-being, and contain my feelings...sacrifice.

Blogging makes me feel better, having company in my ear makes me feel better, making music makes me feel better, being in the comfort of my own echo makes me feel better...I'm glad I find at least some time to do all of these here and there. I'm thankful for that.

Project the Project
inJUSTICE
Fluxtuation
The Application: Front & Back

All of these will come in due time..

I wish I had even more time for Music..she deserves more attention from me, but don't you go calling her an attention whore! -_-

And as I run away..

just know that it wasn't because of you..
just know that it wasn't because I was avoiding something..
just know that it wasn't because I was distracted..
just know that it wasn't because I had any problems to deal with..
just know that I'm safe in my own direction...in my own mind...in my own world...in my own city..

My safe haven...I love you.